as it turns out

as it turns out, everything changes. what i’ve realized is, you don’t know you’re asleep until you wake up, just as you don’t know things are changing until they’ve already changed. change is hard. life is hard. even as i write this, i’m struggling with my own sense of self and coming to terms with

the start of something

i’m the youngest child to the youngest child. neither mothers wanted another youngest child. life had other plans for both of them. this is how my life started. i grew up with so little that saying i had the ‘clothes on my back’ is often overstated. the life we had on that dirt road so

this brain.

meningitis changes everything. about a year ago, i got this cough. this cough turned into the worst flu-like symptoms i’ve ever had. that turned into a fever i couldn’t control. all of this turned into meningitis. for folks that don’t know what meningitis is, i’ve posted some links with insanely good information and articles. i’m